the World is on my shoulders

i guess i've been oblivious for way too long, so long that i began to panick when i "woke up" and noticed the things happening around me.

the fact that im being referred as a rich playboy really REALLY affected me alot ALOT! esp from.... raahhhH!!!
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do i really look like that?
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the price of petrol increased noticably recently and we ought to cut down on fuel. i realised that i've spent way WAY too much on petrol since i had the license. $10+ of fuel PER DAY for the month of may is not healthy. means i used 5 litres of petrol daily, which equates up to 60km of distance travelled per day. WOW! although daddy forgave me regarding by saying, " if i were u i would have done the same thing, isnt a surprise a new driver to be thrilled to drive", im felt really guilty abt that. total petrol cost for that month was near 300. -_-!
have to watch how i drive, gotta switch gears before 3k rpm and drive within the speed limit.
(i admit i have been speeding and dragging those gears)

another issue is regarding money (again).
seems like jie spent more than she should for the month and daddy's really worried. spending more than she can earn is SERIOUSLY BAD.( i cant think of a better word to use). okay. the main point here is she brushed off daddy when he probed at the issue =[ i wish jie could sit down and have a gd talk wif him.

projs and studies have been a pressing issue. the fact that i was SO distracted for CTs gt me counselling sessions, private talks with lecturers and friends, remedials etc etc, u know the rest. raaahhhh!! feeling stressed is a problem. i promised myself to work hard. but now what? im here blogging and wasting precious revision time away. =[ i must MUST work a million times harder and not disappoint mummy any further, else i will be jeopardizing my r/s. 2 conditions for it, no late nightouts and maintain my academics.

mummy's been really concerned about my late nightouts due to BB. reaching hm at 12mn on mondays and wednesdays really pissed her off. additional nights due to rehearsals and perfs are catalysts for her to blow her top off. i wish i could come home sooner. like lastest 10 plus?? seems impossible but.... we'll see how. the worst that can happen is.. ermm... u all can prolly guess. the condition to stay in BB is.... results again.

so in short, studies link to everything.
BB
r/s
late nightouts
finance
etc.

none the less,
priority is always FAMILY, then studies.

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